I wanted to commemorate my past year somehow. I thought of writing an entry about before and after, but it was too complex and probably of interest to nobody but me.
Instead I made a slide show of my year of treatment. I thought it was going to be emotionally difficult, seeing myself go from healthy to sick and somewhat back again.
What surprised me was how happy this made me. I had tons of pictures of the friends and family who came to help and support us. There are even a bunch of folks who helped out and are not in this slide show. I had so many pictures of my kids looking like kids. I know there were important parts of the year that got left off camera, but seeing how we managed to stick together, with all of this love as a glue, was healing.
The music is “Here I go again” by Danny Salazar. Right after I was diagnosed and we were in that awful waiting stage, my husband and I discovered his band. He was playing in a local dive and we tried to go every week. This song spoke to us, and we got to dance and sing along to it quite a lot in those early days.
